10 Facts about You

1. You are reading this
2. You realized that this is a stupid fact
4. You didn't realize I skipped number three
5. You are checking now
6. You are smiling
7. You are still reading this even though it's stupid
9. You didn't realized I skipped number eight
10. You are checking it again and smiling about how you fell for it again.
11. You are enjoying this
12. You didn't realize there're only supposed to be ten facts and you are on fact number twelve.


"A smile is a curve that sets everything straight."
Phyllis Diller


xoxo


Ms. A

Life is a Matter of Choice

It is your choice;

To be happy or to be sad

To be confident or to be insecure

To hold on or to let go

To forgive or to blame

To forget or to be bitter

To move on or to regret

To be a survival or to be a suicidal

To look forward for the future or to stay in the past

Nothing is certain in this life,
It is not about what life brings to us,
It is about how we respond,
Life is a matter of choice.

xoxo

Ms. A

We worship God for who He is, and not because of what we will get. When we acknowledge what we owe, we shall thank Him that He paid our debt - Sper

xoxo

Ms. A

Dear Pain

Dear pain,
What have you gained?
Why do you exist?
Only to make people sick

Dear pain,
Why don't you go away?
Leave me with peace
Rather than with pieces

Dear pain,
You know one day you'll be gone
Cos everything will be right
And I'll be alright

Dear pain,
Til one day I'm over him
I will shut you down
To the ground

So what now?
Why don't you leave now?
Leave me in peace,
Rather than in pieces.

xoxo

Ms. A

Emergency Exit is for Emergency!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!
Hope that all of you had a wonderful Christmas!

Like what you see from the title, I learned my lesson on Christmas that emergency exit is intended for emergency only. And here're the details of what exactly happened to me.

So here's the story. And it'll be a long one. Fasten your seatbelt folks!

Last week, I asked my bestie -Joshuana- a big favor when she was in Jakarta and about to leave to Brisbane. I asked her to bring my gift, which was a box of gingerbread biscuits to my GPdI Brisbane friends with their christmas card of course, and pass them to everyone on the Christmas Dinner. So I wait for about a week or less, and they finnaly get to see the biscuits and receive my cards.
They were so sweet! So one of my friend sent me a video of them saying 'Thank you and we love you. Merry Christmas!' and Reza (who sent me the video) asked me to record another video of me as a reply!
And this is the part where things started to get a lil bit crazy.

First! I was in the middle of a very crowded mall on the 24th December, and their 'thank you' video almost made me cry! Not almost! It did make cry, just a lil bit, so noone noticed and my eyeliner was fine :)

Second! Once again, I was in the middle of the mall! How could I record a video of MYSELF by myself without people looking at me with their 'are-you-crazy?' look?
Toilet was in my mind as an option but no, people could hear me talking to myself over and over again on the same conversation cos I'm such a perfectionist when it comes to a video recording which means there will be quite a lot of retakes going on when I record the video. But I didn't record it in the toilet cos it was quite inappropriate to,I think.

So based on those 2 things. I came up with the idea of "Oh! Why don't I record it in the emergency stairs? No one will be there, and it's better than the toilet!"
Brilliant idea right?? At that time I was thinking how genius I am! Well apparently I wasn't that genius.

I went into the nearest emergeny stairs, ALONE, and recorded a few reply videos as Reza requested and finally get something that I was quite happy with and able to send it through whatsapp.
So while I try to send the video and walk to the exit door (to enter the mall again) I found out that it was, sorry, it IS a one way door!!!

Oh sweet Jesus!! I can't get in to the mall!!!!!!!!
I was panic! But I also thought that that was very very very hilarious! How random that is?! Locked inside the emergency exit in the mall on the christmas eve?! LOL
Life does know how to surprise me.

So reacting on the panic attack, I walk down (on my heels) from Upper-Ground Level to Lower-Ground Level and found the real exit door. Yaaayyyy!! And it's locked as well! Oh maaannn! Why do you have to lock the main exit door? Noone can exit from here then!!

Okay, going down didn't work. So I went upstairs from Lower-Ground to Ground then Upper-Ground and so on til level 4!! Good thing I was smart enough to took off my heels beforehand. And you know what? ALL OF THE DOOR ON EACH LEVEL WERE LOCKED!!!!
Oh Nooooo!! Plan A failed.

Yes! I was panicking but I couldn't help myself to laugh at myself as well. LOL
The brilliant idea wasn't so brilliant at all, was it?
and another awesome thing is, there was NO EMERGENCY CONTACT number to call in case if you were locked inside like me, AND!!! My phone was about to die. Great! Perfect! Awesome! Excellent!

And here's another hilarious side of my way of think. I even had a thought of setting something up on fire so they will open up the emergency exit and I'll be free! Yaayy!! But the thing is (as you can see in the pictures), there were nothing in the emergency exit except stairs! And I don't have a lighter, I don't smoke, how do I get something on fire when I can create fire?! Plan B failed..

So now the big question.
How the heck did I manage to get out from there, still alive and manage to write this on my blog?

Truly is amazing! My God's plan and timing are always right on time!

I was in that mall waiting for my friend cos we were going to a Christmas Service, and she whatsapped me where do I wanna meet and I told her she needed to get in to the mall and get me out of the emergency exit. And of course let her know that my phone is about to die.
So I waited for about half an hour til she came and FINALLY open that freaking one-way exit door!
Did I mention that the emergency exit was super hot? I was sweating like crazy!! And FINALLY I got out!!
And I just couldn't stop laughing and so did my friend who saved my life.

Another irony is, the video that I sent, was failed, and it was delivered when the dinner party was over. LOL
so pointless, but yet so awesome!
I still couldn't help myself to laugh everytime I remember this 'accident'

I guess everyone has their own clumsy moment and mine was right on the Christmas Eve!

Lesson learned!
Never enter an emergency exit door if you're not in any kind of emergency situation! Recording a reply video is NOT an emergency situation!

PS: I attached some pictures of the 'emergency' situation I was in. as a remembrance of how random life can be.

xoxo

Ms. A

HELP ME!!!!

Love coin

Love is vain
Love is pain
Giving all you have
Giving all your life

Love is trust
Faith is a must
Hope he'll be kind
And you're not blind

Love isn't real
It makes you ill
Suffering with dreams
Smiling with memories

Love is dangerous
Love is furious
Makes you fall
Left with nothing at all

What's the point
You flip the coin
Either it last
Or it blast

xoxo

Ms. A

Everything Happens for a Reason

It's almost Christmas!!!

I realized I haven't been posting any story since I got back to Indonesia or in any kind of event, I hardly post anything on my blog, maybe that explains why do I not have any follower on my blog.
And here it is, me posting a story or a piece of my mind.

It's December folks!! It's the season of holiday! Season of gift, love, and joy! December is all about Christmas!!
I really think December is all about Christmas for the WHOLE world. Let's take a look from my point of view who lives in a Muslim country, Christmas trees are everywhere, all the performances in the shopping mall are in Christmas theme, the decoration, the sale and promotion. Not to mention other western countries, I would say Christmas is their biggest holiday season during the year. Funny how people are using Christmas as a marketing tools to boost up their business at the end of the year and in fact, losing the real meaning of Christmas itself.

Sad, but true, so few people realized that the real essence of Christmas is Christ himself.
It is sad that people tend to ignore the fact that Christmas is a reminder of God's mercy to this world and made up a new figure for Christmas (a.k.a Santa Claus). I don't really know what's the history of Santa Claus,and not that I don't like Santa Claus, he is a good man (based on the story I heard), at least he teaches kids to be good during the year to get a Christmas present. What I don't like is people mention more about Santa on Christmas than Christ, people wait for Santa and not Christ, people wait for the Christmas gifts when they already had the best gift they could ever get.

I don't disagree with the idea of giving out Christmas present on Christmas, it's a good gesture, it's an expression of love, it captured the idea of God's love for the humanity by giving His own child to redeem us. I totally support the Christmas gifts idea, so folks, please feel free to send me a Christmas present or card if you like :)  Cos it is just nice, It's a positive thing to give gifts, It's a good gesture to show someone that you care and you love them, it doesn't have to be a thing, a gift could also be your time, your affection, you attention, anything!
I once read a quote, you guys might know this one as well, it says " You can give without loving, but you can't love without giving". and God has set us an example of His love, He gave us His most precious Son to us.

Few days ago I went to my office Christmas service and there was a kids' performance. They are totally adorable, cute and beautiful. They sang a song with a line (I can't really remember the exact line, but it says pretty much like) "Thank you God for the best Christmas present I could ever get, the love of God through Jesus Christ" and I think that is totally true! That is the real Christmas, it's all about God's love for us!!

Once again I have to make my point that I don't against Santa, Christmas gifts, Christmas parties, Christmas event, the sale, promotion, dinners, I don' against any of those. I'm happy that Christmas could become on of the opportunities to bless everyone in the world (people, companies, shops, etc). Isn't it the whole point of Christmas, God wants to bless all of his people. BUT!! don't replace the main reason of CHRISTmas itself for things I mentioned earlier.

Hope you will have your best Christmas experience this year!!

xoxo

Ms. A

Impossible = I'm possible

There can be miracles, when you believe

Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles you can achieve

When you believe, somehow you will

You will when you believe

- Mariah Carey -

It's been tough days lately, when I starting to realise that I will not get what I want at the end of the day and have to prepare myself leave everything that I have in Brisbane.

To be honest, I might have given up even before I go for war. I start to detaching myself from my friends and my loved ones so it won't be that hurtful by the time I have to leave. Which hurts, I don't wanna leave.

But today, when I was on facebook, I read this status from Mariah Carey song which I quoted above, 'there can be miracles when you believe'. It is not about giving wishful hope or empty faith for myself. This is about a reminder for me not to give up yet. I still have this very short 2 and a half months here and lets make them count.

I have to buckle up myself, putting on my fighting gear for what I trully want. If at the end God wants something different then.. O well, at least I tried. Losing faith and hope is not a great feeling to be honest. But it teaches you what it is like to have faith and hope when everything is 'hopeless'.

Romans 5:4-5

And endurance (fortitude) develops maturity of character (approved faith and tried integrity). And character [of this sort] produces [the habit of] joyful and confident hope of eternal salvation. Such hope never disappoints or deludes or shames us, for God’s love has been poured out in our hearts through the Holy Spirit Who has been given to us.

What now?

Start to feel like I'm losing the meaning of my life.
Living my life normaly without any certain destination. What should I do?
Do what people suggest to me?
Do what I want to?
Do what my parents want me to?

By the end of the day, this is my life.
So? What now?
Which path I should take?
Which decision I should make?

Oh Dear Lord,
Please please please, I need Your grace and wisdom.

Faith

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things unseen"

Hebrews 11:1

It is really easy to be faithful when things go okay and they go according to what we have planned before. What would happen if our plans don't worked out really well? What if our plans for everything ruined and we can only watch them and do nothing to fix them?

Will you be faithful?

Will you be able to keep your hope in its place?

The thing is, faith doesn’t work really well and we don’t really need faith when everything is in their place. Faith works when everything is not in their place, faith works when we can’t depend on ourselves. We need faith when we don’t see what will happen in our life. We need faith when we surrender all we have and all we want to the hands of God.

I have these plans that I have prepared for years, plans for my future, what I will be, where I will be, who I will be, what life I will live. Everything seems alright, goes accordingly until lately beginning of this year I found out that most of them will not happen anymore (well, based on my sight, they all are not happening).

I have this habit of making a yearly goal setting on new year eve, what I want to fix, what I want to achieve, what I want to do in that particular year so I know where am I going in that year. This year, the brand new 2011, I didn’t do my goal setting on New Year eve. Although I know what I want, what I want to be, and what I want to do, I also know that I can’t have them.

Now, I don’t really know what’s happening in my own life. I don’t know where I am walking to. I can’t even make my plans for 3 months later. I’m afraid of purchasing anything knowing the fact that I might not be able to stay here longer than 4 months.

Upset? Yes.

Disappointed? Yes.

Stressed? Yes.

Depressed? Yes.

Hopeless? NO.

Although I know most likely that I will have to go back to Indonesia against my will, there is a small tiny chance that I might be able to stay in Australia. I remember, there was once I read a comic book about this tiny girl who is really optimistic in chasing over her dream to be a ballerina with her very limited skills. In the comic book she states this “Even though I know my chance of failing this audition is 99%, I will never quit trying, because if I quit, that means I am wasting my 1% of my chance that I might succeed.”

I am a firm believer of faith with no actions is empty. So here I am, picking up every piece of my shattered hope and dreams. Putting them back again with my faith and surrender them into the hands of God. Yet also I’m trying my best to find every possibility that I can have and do my best to get to my goals. If at the end I still couldn’t get what I want then it is very obvious that what I want is not what God wants. So I will keep my head up, and know that I’ve done my part. At least I tried.

ora et labora