Thursday, June 16, 2011

Impossible = I'm possible

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe
- Mariah Carey -

It's been tough days lately, when I starting to realise that I will not get what I want at the end of the day and have to prepare myself leave everything that I have in Brisbane.

To be honest, I might have given up even before I go for war. I start to detaching myself from my friends and my loved ones so it won't be that hurtful by the time I have to leave. Which hurts, I don't wanna leave.

But today, when I was on facebook, I read this status from Mariah Carey song which I quoted above, 'there can be miracles when you believe'. It is not about giving wishful hope or empty faith for myself. This is about a reminder for me not to give up yet. I still have this very short 2 and a half months here and lets make them count.

I have to buckle up myself, putting on my fighting gear for what I trully want. If at the end God wants something different then.. O well, at least I tried. Losing faith and hope is not a great feeling to be honest. But it teaches you what it is like to have faith and hope when everything is 'hopeless'.

Romans 5:4-5
And endurance (fortitude) develops maturity of character (approved faith and tried integrity). And character [of this sort] produces [the habit of] joyful and confident hope of eternal salvation. Such hope never disappoints or deludes or shames us, for God’s love has been poured out in our hearts through the Holy Spirit Who has been given to us.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

What now?

Start to feel like I'm losing the meaning of my life.
Living my life normaly without any certain destination. What should I do?
Do what people suggest to me?
Do what I want to?
Do what my parents want me to?

By the end of the day, this is my life.
So? What now?
Which path I should take?
Which decision I should make?

Oh Dear Lord,
Please please please, I need Your grace and wisdom.