Busy Bee

When was the last time I really write something on my blog? Feels like ages ago!

I know I haven't finished my "Sweet dreams to nightmares" story. I will finish it, I just don't know when. It's not that I don't want to finish it, it's just because I hardly have anytime for it. You know for me to be able to finish that story on the finale post will take me at least 3 hours and I'm not sure if I have that much spare time. Unless any of you who read my blog feels like it is better to me NOT to continue the story, please let me know. Really, I'm serious. Let me know the reason too please, you can comment as an anon. If noone put any comment then I'll follow my own guts. Hehehe

So, what's been happening lately? My work is starting to get busier and busier, if only my work was like end of 2011 period where I had almost NO work to do (almost folks, still had some) I could sit down on my desk and start writing the plot and story in my agenda and that story would be finished by now. But this month! There could be 4 people coming to me in a same day asking me to assist them on their jobs, which I'm totally fine and happy about it (I love being busy! Really! I enjoy my busy time more than my nothing-to-do time) but it left me with no time to think about what to write on my blog! I even posted 3 posts which weren't my writing (*shame on me) and I'm writing this one from my iPhone quickly only to put my vent today because I miss writing so much!

You probably think that based on my working hour, I suppose to have time after work right? Plus the weekends. PLENTY of time. No no buddy, I should clarify my working conditions first. My current job will only hire me til April (about three months from now) my employment status is under a contract, so I need to focus on finding another permanent job after I finish my contract in case my current company wouldn't hire me for a permanent position. I don't mean to be so negative, but life has been teaching me to hope for the best and prepare for the worst. Therefore, I need to apply for more jobs during February and March and I haven't accomplished my job application target for this month. Why? Because I've been busy during my weekends! Hanging out, catching up with some old high school friends, family time, not to mention the preparation for Chinese New Year.

OH!!! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!! For those who celebrate it!
I finally get to feel the experience of receiving the 'red envelope' again after 2 years (because no 'red envelope' or celebration of CNY is Australia *sobs)
It's nice to get some extra pocket money, but also giving and receiving red envelope is a symbol of sharing your luck and prosperity. Since I'm not married yet, I am not allowed to give any. O well. Too bad. LOL

Yeah, my weekends are fully utilized for having fun and self indulgence (I'm contemplating to take a yoga class or dancing class btw, haven't made up my mind, but I really do think about it). I did apply for some jobs though, but I haven't heard back from any. If any of my readers are kind enough to find me a job :) I'm working in a bank, one of the leading bank in USA too! :) Let me know if you do have any opportunity for me. Hehehehe

Okay, back to topic. I don't even know what the topic was! OHH! And about the CNY preparation, did I mention that I repainted my living room wall and put wallpapers on them? It was such a mission! I'll try to find some time to write in here, in another seperate post of course. That was a kind of experience I'll never forget for my entire life! It was awesome. Ahahahaha

I think this post is long enough, knowing that this post was meant to be a 'full of rant' post, I didn't realize I wrote that much, I'm too lazy to Proofread this post. Apology if I made any unforgivable grammatical or spelling errors up there. English isn't my first language, so....

Anyway, hope all of you have a great great greay day! And weekend ahead!

xoxo!
Ms. A

Careful With Your Email

A Minnesota couple decided to vacation to Florida during the winter. They planned to stay at the very same hotel where they spent their honeymoon 20 years earlier. Because of hectic schedules, it was difficult to coordinate their travel schedules. So, the husband left Minnesota and flew to Florida on Thursday. His wife would fly down the following day.

The husband checked into the hotel. There was a computer in his room, so he decided to send an e-mail to his wife. However, he accidentally left out one letter in her e-mail address, and without realizing his error, he sent the e-mail.

Meanwhile.....somewhere in Houston, a widow had just returned home from her husband's funeral. He was a minister of many years who was called home to glory following a sudden heart attack. The widow decided to check her e-mail, expecting messages from relatives and friends. After reading the first message, she fainted.

The widow's son rushed into the room, found his mother on the floor, and saw the computer screen which read:

To: My Loving Wife
Subject: I've Arrived
Date: 16 May 2003
I know you're surprised to hear from me. They have computers here now and you are allowed to send e-mails to your loved ones. I've just arrived and have been checked in. I see that everything has been prepared for your arrival tomorrow. Looking forward to seeing you then! Hope your journey is not as uneventful as mine was.
P.S. Sure is hot down here!

LOL,

Ms. A

Miss Piggy's Bottle: Winter city

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Miss Piggy's Bottle: Winter city:

Letter from Grandma

*All the characters and names are fictions*

One day I received a letter from grandma... it says:

"The other day I went up to a local Christian bookstore and saw a "honk if you love Jesus " bumper sticker. I was feeling particularly sassy that day because I had just come from a thrilling choir performance, followed by a thunderous prayer meeting, so I bought the sticker and put it on my bumper.

Boy, I'm glad I did! What an uplifting experience followed! I was stopped at a red light at a busy intersection, just lost in thought about the Lord and how good He is and I didn't notice that the light had changed. It is a good thing someone else loves Jesus because if he hadn't honked, I'd never have noticed! I found that LOTS of people love Jesus! While I was sitting there, the guy behind started honking like crazy, and then he leaned out of his window and screamed, "For the love of GOD! GO! GO! Jesus Christ, GO! " What an exuberant cheerleader he was for Jesus! Everyone started honking! I just leaned out of my window and started waving and smiling at all these loving people. I even honked my horn a few times to share in the love! There must have been a man from Florida back there because I heard him yelling something about a "sunny beach ".

I saw another guy waving in a funny way with only his middle finger stuck up in the air. I asked my teenage grandson in the back seat what that meant, he said that it was probably a Hawaiian good luck sign or something. Well, I've never met anyone from Hawaii, so I leaned out the window and gave him the good luck sign back. My grandson burst out laughing. He was enjoying this religious experience, too! 

A couple of the people were so caught up in the joy of the moment that they got out of their cars and started walking towards me. I bet they wanted to pray or ask what church I attended, but this is when I noticed the light had changed. So, I waved to all my sisters and brothers grinning, and drove on through the intersection. I noticed I was the only car that got through the intersection before the light changed again and I felt kind of sad that I had to leave them after all the love we had shared, so I slowed the car down, leaned out of the window and gave them all the Hawaiian good luck sign one last time as I drove away. Praise the Lord for such wonderful folks!

Love,

Grandma"

xoxo,

Ms. A

Make Your Choice

"Beggars are not choosers"

I heard over this line while I was working today, not that I eavesdropped their conversation, but because she said that line loudly. Very very very loud. BUT! I'm happy I heard that line, because it is SO TRUE! That line got me thinking (yes, I've been thinking a lot lately, and I don't think it will stop anytime soon), beggars do not have a privilege to choose.

Why?

Because they have made up their choice! They chose whatever they are begging for! They have chose their choices for life! Job, place to live, partners, family, business, anything! They have set up what they want and chase it. Which wasn't a bad thing. The bad thing is when you have decided what you want and you don't want anything else, so when you didn't get what you wanted, you 'begged' for it. Keep begging the certain company to hire you for a certain position, keep begging for your ex to take you back, keep begging your landlord to let you stay, you begged so you'll get what you wanted.

The thing is, when you beg for something you wanted so bad, you missed out ALL the choices you might have! If you take a good look on beggars, they live they life with begging for other's generosity to give them money to survive. I mean, seriously! Do they ever think about what they've been missing when they spend their lives on begging? It's not like they don't have any choice. They could be a driver or a house servant or anything better than being a beggar!

NEVER! EVER! close your eyes on the options you might have in your life just because you want it less than something else. Life is full of surprise! You never know what life could bring to you. Like my silly "accident" in the emergency exit? Even it wasn't exactly an opportunity to do anything, but life is awesome! It is great! It is full of surprise!! So stop begging for something that wasn't yours and open up for more exciting choices in front of you. It might be a little bit hard to see those great opportunities now, but trust me, God never gives you something less than you deserve.

You couldn't get a job in your favorite company? Who knows you'll get a better position in another company with a better career path? Or earn more money?

You couldn't go to your favorite university? Who knows you'll get scholarship in another university?

You couldn't be with someone you love? Who know Prince Harry might fall for you? (okay, that's too much, I'd prefer Ryan Reynolds though :p )

But you get what I mean right?

By not getting what you want, doesn't mean that you'll be a lot less happier in the long run (you might be for a while, I know, I've been there), but you'll understand why you didn't get what you wanted later on, eventually.

Here's my point;

No one - I repeat - NO ONE becomes a 'beggar' by fate,

They become one by choice,

God created us NOT to be a follower, but to be a leader! and it is UP TO YOU to be what you wanna be, and to choose what you wanna do.

Never blame God for your conditions.

Never say that you have no choice because YOU DO!!

So GET UP! and make yourself a 'chooser', not a 'beggar'.

xoxo

Ms.A

Success & Happiness = Revenge (?)

Last night my bestie wrote one the quotes I'm very familiar with on my facebook's timeline (yes folks! Get a facebook timeline, facebook wall is so last year!), anyway, she said;

"The best revenge is to be successful, is to stay strong and move forward in life; never stop, never give up, never take a step back"

So I went through all the wise words tweets I saved during the second time I broke up with Mr.C, one the tweet says exactly have the same point with what my bestie wrote on my fb, it says;

"Best revenge? H a p p i n e s s, because nothing drives people more crazy than seeing someone is actually having a f**king good life"

Those quotes make me think. Really? Do we really need to be heartbroken to realized that we have to be successful, and happy? NO, WE DON'T!! Everyone deserves to be successful and happy in their lifes! We don't need The heartbreaking event to make us able to have that kind of good life!

We can plan our life, set up our goals, dreams, and hopes. Not giving up, keep moving forward and get what we want! We are so capable of it! But the thing is, sometimes we are too comfortable with our life and forgot that God has created us for a purpose, also we are too comfortable to step out of our comfort zone and pursue our purpose of living, therefore, we might need those hearbreaking event to wake us up in a hard way so we will start moving towards our goals.

Then here's the 'what if' questiones arise.

What if I already had all my life planned perfectly? What if I had arranged the chronology of my goals and when will I achieve them, I had all my dreams, and my purpose in their place? and what if suddenly! Without me asking for it, I met a guy unexpectedly, I fell for him, I loved him so much but I have to sacrifice my plans? What should I do?

Here's what I learned (in a very hard way) from my relationship with Mr.C. I never asked for a boyfriend during my study period in Autralia, and we even met randomly while we both queued for the lobster promo in the Casino.

When I got in to a relationship with Mr.C I made so many changes and adjustments for my future and all of them- I repeat ALL OF MY FUTURE PLANS had Mr.C in it. I never thought or imagined my life without Mr.C, and that's why I was devastated when we broke up. (I know I haven't finished the whole story yet but trust me, it didn't go anywhere near 'good ending')

I gave everything that I have, I compromised with myself for Mr.C, hence when he left, I had nothing. I had nothing to look forward to, I had nothing to pursue, I had nothing to accomplish. No wonder I was so freaking depressed! Oh! Just to make it clear, Mr.C hardly asked me to give up any of my dreams or goals, I did. So it's none of his fault, the only thing he broke is the 'forever' promise. That's all.

The conclusion I could draw from my past experience is never-ever give your everything to someone, even if you love the person with all your heart! NEVER!

Yes, you should make some adjustments and changes to have your path and your partner path synchronized, but NEVER give up your own goals and dreams even if you could see both of you stay together forever. No one knows what could happen.

So in case when the undesirable end comes, both of you couldn't stay together anymore with any kind of reasons, you won't left with nothing. Yes, it will still hurt you and tear you to pieces, but! It'll hurt less than when you have given all you have and left with nothing. When you keep some of your own goals and dreams without your partner in them. You still have something to look forward to even when you guys aren't together anymore.

The 'revenge' idea to move on might seems good at the beginning and it'll motivate you enough to really do move forward, but when you still focus on the 'revenge' a.k.a your enemy, ex, frenemy, rival. You won't go as far as you could when you make yourself as the focus. If you still want the revenge, then you haven't moved on at all.

Never give up on hope!

You deserve to be happy! To be successful! To be brilliant! And to be anything you want to be!

If you have read this post, make sure you won't make the same mistake that I did, trust me, learning it in a hard way wasn't great at all.

Set you goals, dream your dreams, plan you way, and get it done!

Do not compromise, do not hesitate.

God has made us all beautiful in our own ways and He has planned a fabulous 'happy ending' for each of us!

"Keep you sight focused on God, be patient and watch the exciting things that God will do in your life."

xoxo

Ms. A

Negative to Positive

I AM NOT PREGNANT! if that is what you think of when you read the title! Just to make it clear, it'll be just another story guys. Sorry if I just ruined your expectation. :p

It was New Year's Eve, I went to meet up with my friend from Brisbane and drove my sister to her friend's place where she would spend her last day in 2011. So I prepare myself, tidied up a bit, put on some make up, standard routine when a girl wanna go out. I was excited about New Year's Eve, couldn't wait til midnight and watch the whole fireworks in my neighborhood.

Here's the weird thing, there was a moment when I looked into myself inside the mirror and I hated it, I hated how I look like (which was how I normally look like, with some make up on), my make up suddenly felt so heavy (which was unusual, cos I put normal amount of make up like usual, even lighter than my office-look). I didn't understand and still trying to figure out what happened in my head on that day.

What's going on? Do I put on some make up simply to make myself look better and tidier and more professional? Why do girls put on some make up? So the world couldn't see their imperfections? Or simply to cover up all the wounds that are invisible? Do they put on make up because they feel insecure? because they don't want people to see how fragile they are? because they don't want people to see their flaws?

The truth is, I don't know....

I used to love staring at myself in the mirror, even without make up, not to be proud and arrogant, but I love the way I am and the way I look (yes, I am a bit of a narcissist)! I love watching myself smiling and laughing for no reason cos I like it! I like my smile, and how I look like when I'm happy. So what happened to that girl in the mirror? I just hopefully wished that she hasn't forgotten how to smile and laugh from her heart.

RIGHT! So the count down to 2012 was happening, fireworks were everywhere!! It felt like a war to be honest! the explosions, the sound, It was like the enemies were bombing us! Anyway, I went out with my mum, we had a walk around our complex and the neighbors fired out LOTS of fireworks. That was the time I should feel excited! I should, right?! I'm a HUGE fan of fireworks!! But I didn't! I have no idea what got into me that night, I was in another dimension, my thought wasn't there, people kept wow-ing and clapping during the fireworks 'show' but I just walked quietly and I was silent! For those who know me well, that night was a kind of time where I would be jumping all around and hugging people around me and shouting HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone. But there I was, being highly anti-social, did some handshakes and smile and small happy new year greeting. WHAT'S GOING ON WITH ME??!!!!

So, I decided to call my friends in Brisbane, to say happy new year again, and also because I know they love me for who I am and I know I can count on them whenever I'm feeling down. and that was just what I needed! a bunch of awesome crazy people who know me well enough and know exactly how to lighten up my gloomy feelings! (If you guys are reading this, I'd use this opportunity to thank all of you! I love you guys!!)

What exactly happened then? I still don't know and I'm yet to find out, but the truth is, I don't care.

It was new year, it was a perfect time to put all the negatives behind and embrace all the positives!

I'm aware that those emotional roller coaster will come to me again anytime in the future, but let's not be so negative.

"Start your day with a smile and may happiness follows you for the rest of your day"

xoxo

Ms. A

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Another fresh new year is here
Another year to live
To banish worry, doubt, and fear
To love and laugh and give!
This bright new year is given to me.
To live each day with zest
To daily grow and try to be.
My highest and my best!
I have the opportunity.
Once more to right some wrongs
To pray for peace,
to plant a tree,
And sing more joyful songs!."


- William Arthur Ward


HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS!!!


xoxo,


Ms. A