Quick Update on Ms. A

How long has it been?? I truly could not believe that I have not written a single post for more than a month!

Quick updates, I've finished my training period and become a permanent staff in the company I currently working in. Work life has been quite good and hectic at a same time.

I've been dreaming about being back to Australia for a couple of times, some in Brisbane, some in Melbourne, they do make me miss Australia a lot! But looking at my condition right now and how I manage to get to where I am today, I wouldn't say that I've done enough. I know that I could do more than what I have done, but I pretty pleased with how I get through all of the process.

Not satisfied, but I'm content. I do believe that all things happen for reasons. Even though I do always wonder what the reasons are, I'm happy with where I am right now..

Still so many things to learn and earn. Yet so little time to master all of them. But I do believe that I have all the support I needed :)
Especially from above.

Well, I guess that's what a full time job will do to you. First, hardly have time to write a blog. Second, hardly have thoughts other than you work which make you don't know what to write on your blog. Third, hardly have a good sense of humor. Forth, hardly know a good way to end a blog post.

I guess that's enough for a quick update. Not like my friend who's currently on his awesome trip to Europe, I have no story about test-driving a lambo and a ferrari *sad&jealous&enviousface*

I wonder when is my time to do those awesome stuffs.. *sigh*

Anyway! That's all for my boring update..

xoxo
Ms. A

Smart Girls

Smart girls are the overthinkers, the insecures one, the different ones. 
They know what the real world is like. 
They analyse every little thing in life. 
Why? 
To avoid getting hurt. 
To find happiness. 
They stay up at night trying to think about every possible situation to get through all the problems. 
They think too much, they trust less people. 
They insecurity proves their respect towards themselves. 
Of course they try to live away from drama-filled life. 
Smart girls know their worth, now that’s the ones worth keeping by your side.

-Unknown-

xoxo,

Ms.A

Pointless Rant when I can't sleep

Hello again my dearest blog...... *not so excited*
I am currently typing this in the middle of the night, no, I meant at 2 AM-ish in the morning, simply because I can't sleep. Gahh! I hate this bloody insomnia syndrome. I haven't been able to sleep properly, and I haven't had enough sleep in the past few days! Not expecting this to continue to become weeks or moths thanks. I NEED SLEEP! And apparently, writing this down on my blog doesn't help me to fall asleep either! *big long sigh*

It's not like I'm having a certain things to be concerned about, or anything to be stressed out about. I just can't sleep. I am so certain that if I eventually fall asleep tonight (which already counted as the next day) I will have to wake up in no time as if I have only been asleep for 5 minutes.

Well, this is another pointless post for my rant and vent. You may close your browser now if you like to, because I fell that this is a real pointless thing to do. Now I am not making any sense.

This insomnia reminds me of those moments when I couldn't sleep because I would be super excited for a 'big day' the day after. Well, I am hoping that this past few days insomnia thingo is a sign of a 'big day' coming towards me whether I realized it or not. *fingerscrossed*
Life could be very funny when it comes to its attempt on surprising me.

Anyway, Sleep time! *finally I'm falling asleep*
please do excuse if there were many errors in this post, I typed this this whole thing while I was half asleep *yawn*

Sleep time!

xoxo
Ms.A

It Is What It Is

It grows and it fades
So quick that I couldn't even catch a glimpse of it
Too long that I wonder if it is suppose to feel like this

It seems like it is what it is
So strong that it could last forever
Yet so fragile that it could break to pieces

It brings smiles and joy
It brings tears and sorrow
Survived through the storms
But gave up before the trials

It provides as it takes back what it wants
So little that I haven't had enough
Too much that I can't take it anymore

So easy to be found
So easy to get lost

It is the beginning
It is the end
Noone could see it is coming
Noone could keep it from leaving

It is just what it is.....

xoxo,
Ms. A

It Goes On

When people say sometimes life is hard, they are living in abundance. Life is hard, period. Life is not fair, period. It is a normal thing that we don't get what we wanted, but it doesn't mean that we will never get what we wanted. It's a matter of how we learn to adjust our wants with conditions. Not about shrinking down our dreams or goals, but about re-strategising.

When life brings you down, it's not about why it happened, but about what it has taught you.
When someone disappointed you, it's not about why they did that to you, but about who deserves you trust.
When you don't get what you want. It's not about being sad and down, but it's about how you can find another way to make it happen.
When someone leaves, it's not about why they left, but it's about why they can't stay in our life.
When someday you suddenly remember about your failures in the past, it's not about weeping over them again and again, but it's about reminding yourself where have you gone through from that moment up until now.

People dream, and they fail,
They get back up and try again,
Some get what they wanted in the end,
Some have given up before they even reached the end.

People believe and they're disappointed
They learned their mistakes and keep moving on.
They learned that trust has to be earned rather than to be given.

No matter what's going on right now, life will never wait for you.
It goes on.

xoxo,

Ms. A

Shoes and Lover

If you could choose which shoes you want to wear for therest of your life, which shoes that you will choose? Will it be the highlyexpensive fancy shoes, the beautifully designed shoes or the most comfortableshoes? I believe all of us would choose to wear the most comfortable shoes J

But often in life, especially me, I can’t resist the temptation of buying a new pair of shoes, heels especially, even when I don’treally need them just because they look great. We all know wearing heels toooften is not good for our feet, but still, comfort is the second priority afterthe design. Therefore finding the right shoes that is comfortable and looksgreat isn’t an easy thing to do.

Same thing goes with our life and our partner; sometimes we are too often mesmerized by the beauty of our opposite sex and forgot thecomfort associated with it, he/she could looks so great but will you get alongwell? Or you want to push yourself like we would force our feet to fit in themost beautiful and expensive heels and got disfigured?

It is hard to find the perfect shoes for us, but in the endyou’ll find it anyway J

Keep the faith!

xoxo,

Ms.A 

Why so Serious?

It is July and we are moving towards the other end of 2012. What have I done? Have I achieved half of my 2012 Resolutions? Frankly, I am quite disappointed with what I have done and where I am right now, not that I haven’t achieved anything, but it’s not like I have done something significant in my life. But hey, life goes on, I still have 6 months in front of me to achieve what I need to achieve this year and so do you, so smile up and let us do our best! :D

It is funny when I remember the rumour about this world will come to its end in 2012, and yet I’m alive right now writing this blog, and latter you are alive in another side of the world reading this blog. Somehow, in some ways, humans in general need something to push them in doing what they are doing; they need the urgency to finish something. So, when the rumour about the dooms day in 2012 came up, some people find the urgency to be alive when they could be doing that since they were born. Well, not since they were born, but since they understand about things.

We often ask ourselves whether it’s worth it to do this or that while we have so many considerations of outcomes and risks associated with it, but once we found out that we don’t have much time to do what we want to do, we’ll risk it anyway. Well, I would. If one day I found out I only have a week left to live my life, I wouldn’t think much of what I should do or not do. I only have a week left!! I’m doing whatever I want to do no matter what.

Sometimes, whether we realized it or not, we tend to hold ourselves back with so many thoughts. I am not saying that it’s a bad thing to have considerations, but sometimes it’ll get us nowhere by thinking and considering the decision and act we are going to make, the act itself is what will bring us somewhere. Therefore, think less, do more :p of course by saying think less means that we still HAVE to think before we act, but not too much. LOL. Because once we overthink about something, then sometimes we forget the basic motivation and our foundation of doing what we are doing.

We only live once, why so serious?

Be more spontaneous! And I can guarantee that life will surprise you!

xoxo,

Ms. A

Hello Mother Nature!!

It’s been a while people! And I’ve been busy with work mostly, all the trainings and tests and assignments, but hey! That’s life, and it goes on. It’s good to be back on my blog, haven’t been able to put up my thought on anything for a while, and at least I don’t have to conceal any of my thought on my blog.

This week I’m spending my time in Bandung for a Basic Credit Analysis Training Course, it takes 2 weeks to finish the whole very basic material. So I get to stay in the training centre for 2 weeks with my colleagues. The training itself was okay; it’s very packed up and full on! It takes away my Saturday for training class as well and that’s not cool. BUT, outside the training itself was massive fun!!

The training centre is in the mountain area, so the weather is perfect! It’s cool and just right. The facilities are excellent! 3 meals and 2 snacks a day, I’m getting fat for sure, hot water, laundry, gym, TV, everything! Except for internet but most of us got a modem nowadays, no drama. So yes, it’s a good place especially for me, who has not seen natural scenery for a while cos I live in a metropolitan area which is filled with buildings, mall, highway, traffics, and the list goes on. Haven’t been on a beach or mountain for at least half a year and here I am, surrounded by mountains, hills, farms, and parks. So good! So good!!

There was once my sister asked me out of the blue, “Do you remember when exactly the last time you stepped on the ground and feel the ground?”  At that moment I knew and I remember when was the last time I stepped my bare feet on a real ground (not a manmade ground), but after a long time I realize it’s not about me remember the details but about how many times I am fortunate enough to feel the mother nature!

Here in Bandung, I am very fortunate to once again stepped on the green grass and playing around with, taking pictures, and hangin out. Oh, how I miss those moments! Truly, not that I’m exaggerating, but It is very hard to find a fine park in Jakarta to playing around or just to chill, mostly because of the hot, humid, tropical weather that makes me don’t want to stay away from the air-conditioned building, and secondly because of the air pollution. But here in this training centre, the air was so much purer and fresher and cooler than the metropolitan area where I live in, so it is so different and I don’t feel like leaving this training centre! Despite the great area and weather, the foods are awesome! Hahahaha. No more worrying about what to have for lunch or dinner, they even provide us with tea break snacks!

This is one of the picture I took with my colleagues in the training centre.

Oh how I don't want to leave. LOL

Anyway, it’s good to be back, and it’s good to feel the ground for one more time. So, when was the last time you stepped your feet on the ground? :p

Xoxo,

Ms.A

Door of Our Heart

Our heart is like a door, it might sounds a bit odd but I do think that it's kinda true. If after reading this post you wonder how the heck I got this analogy, it's kinda lame but I got it when I was daydreaming and stared at a door for about 20 minutes. Why door? What's up with the door? What's the correlation with our heart? See, there are many ways to deal with a door, and same thing applies to our heart. Don't worry, no violence included, breaking a door which will be equal to breaking a heart doesn't count!

The first way to deal with a door (heart) is to close the door and lock it. This choice sometimes is taken when it comes to something that you can't tolerate, or a choice that is taken when you are so very sure with what you believe in. For example; no sex before marriage, religion, faith, or your commitment to your spouse when you are married. Apart from those examples, this choice is also taken by some non sense racist an stubborn people (no offense to anyone in particular). Those who take this choice really do shut the door and refuse to take any input or advice or possibility to change their mindset, I personally believe that this kind of heart could be open, but it takes a lot of effort to break through it.

The second one is, you close the door and leave it unlock. Normally, people take this option when it comes to something less principal, something you could tolerate, but it's essential in your life. This option is meant to be taken when you have to make a decision that could effect your life, important decision that aren't so fatal but substantial. Once you made the decisions, they are very unlikely to change in a short period of time. Probably like choosing your girlfriend or boyfriend? Or choosing which college degree you are going to do? Should I take the job? Should I resign? It is when you  have a preference or the decision, but you could change your them for a reasonable reason. It is when you tend to close the door, but when the right reason knocks, you'll open up for some changes in life.

The third and last one is you leave it open. I think this one is pretty straight forward, things like hobby, movie to watch, place to visit, book to read, food to eat, and many more. Things in your life, where you open up for suggestions and reviews from different kind of sources.

I believe different people would have different kind of choices and reactions toward random events in their life, and there are so many ways in dealing with one same case in life, therefore I believe, a person could have is more likely to have all of the options above when he/she deals with different kind of things, but it doesn't meant that different people will react in a same way for one same event. Therefore I didn't give many examples up there because it depends on the owner of the door. Personally, I've been through so many things (and will go through more in the future) that made (and will make) me choose what I have to do with my heart, ignore it and continue life as it is? consider my decision again and make some adjustments? or accept the 'new thing' and change my perspective entirely?

Those choices are totally up to you, sometimes it is an easy choice, but most of the times we will find it hard to make a decision, especially for point #1 and #2. Those life changing decisions that you have to make in you life or you're going nowhere from where you stand at the moment. But then again, life has been always about how many risk you are willing to take to move forward.

Therefore....
Stay firm in what you believe in,
Hold on when life gets hard,
Seek more opportunities,
Be smart enough to know the risk,
Be brave enough to take the risk.

xoxo,
Ms. A

Superhero

Have you ever wondered how it feels like to be able to read someone else's mind? or how it feels like to be able to control someone else's mind? Like the policeman in the Heroes TV Series! It was such a great power! it's like having the world inside your head!

Have you ever wished that you had that mind-controlling power? Have you? I have! There were so many particular times where I wished I was able to read minds or control people's minds. The most popular example was the time where I had to face my Final Exam!! How awesome could it be if I have the power! I'd score A++++++ and get super high distinctions when I graduated. Another example was when we're in a relationship, to be able to figure out what our partner want for their birthday or anniversary, or what were they thinking when they were upset, or whether they're cheating or not, whether this guy has a crush on me or not would be great,wouldn't it? Maybe during the time when we try to find a job, can you imagine how awesome it is to be able to control the employer's mind to hire us? Or to get ourselves a promotion? To be able to sell anything to our clients? And many more!!!!

Are you interested in this kind of power yet? I'm not selling any kind of power though, don't get me wrong, I'm just trying to describe my way of thinking about having this kind of power. It would be freaking awesome right? to be able to control and read other people's minds? I can do, I can have, I can get everything I want! AND that's when it's wrong. See, God didn't give us this kind of power for a reason reasons! Maybe I did  exaggerate about what we could do if we had the power, but have you ever thought about what you wouldn't have if you have the power?

I think, there would be a HUGE trust issue going on when we have the power to read people's minds. Yes, We might know EVERYTHING, but we'll trust no one in the end, is it worth it? Not to mention the probability of you losing trust to your-own-self! Try to picture it with me, We have the power, we use it (of course! why wouldn't you use such great power?) and we got straight As during out university degree, then we got the perfect job we've been dreaming, got promoted and successful, ALL our dreams come true. will you be happy? Yes of course! But will you believe in yourself if you don't have the power anymore? I don't think so. People often say trust is one of the hardest thing to get, but the easiest thing to break. Once you break it, it will never be the same.

Another reason that I could think of is, maybe we don't have the power because God wants us to work hard and put some effort to get what we want so we could appreciate it when we get it! Imagine if we could have and get everything we want as easy as flipping our hand up side down. Will we ever appreciate what we have? Will we ever be grateful and give thanks? I don't think so, people will grow greedier and greedier each day, and I'm not sure if that's a good thing.

Therefore, maybe the whole reason for us to not having this kind of super great and awesome mind-controlling power is that we could believe in ourself and strive our best to achieve what we want! and most importantly to trust in God. I'm not much of a religious person to say this, But you could see how faithful God is! He trusts us more than we trust ourself that He didn't give this kind of power to us, because He knew we can handle our life perfectly, and if we find ourself unable, God is able :) So sweet right? :p

So why don't we be the normal people, and let God be the Superhero?
Cos I find that being the 'victim' and get 'rescued' by the Superhero is more awesome than being the 'Superhero' itself. LOL! I got rescued! Makes me feel so freaking important and precious! Hahahaha!
So all in all, I'd love to have that kind of power (*still! hahaha!), but I love the fact that I could be proud of myself when I really did achieve something from my own hardwork and effort.


Loving my life as it is

xoxo,
Ms. A

Smile

Looking at myself in the mirror
I see a smile that curved beautifully
Wondering where it came from
Wondering how it came by

A smile that has brightened up my day
A smile that sets everything else straight
A smile that makes me better
A smile that warms my heart

A smile that makes me forgot the tears
A smile that makes me forgot the pain
A smile that reminds me of joy
A smile that reminds me of hope

Thank you,

For putting this smile on my face.

xoxo,
Ms. A

Control of Your Heart

A wise and understanding heart does not repay a hurt with a hurt. In doing so, the heart is diminished. Fissures form. Love leaks out. Every pain given in return for one received, changes the contents of the heart. It is no longer defined by love, wisdom and understanding. It is redefined by the bearers of hurt and hate, pride and prejudice, meaness and madness, sorrow and sadness. You give away control of your very own heart.

The despair of being hurt is healed by overcoming it, not clinging to the hurt and inflicting more of it on the world. When darkness is added to darkness, no one can see, no one can love. Everyone loses.

Love is not always warm and fuzzy. Sometimes it's the integrity we hold on to when we tempted to strike back. Sometimes it's the honor that keeps us from exchanging the valuable contents of our heart for the harsh satisfaction of lashing back.

No, the way of love is not always easy, but when night falls, dawn is assured.

The integrity and honor of a wise and understanding heart, rises with the sun of a new day.

"Because you have asked for understanding to discern judgement. I have given you a wise and understanding heart" - 1 Kings 3:11-12

"Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life " - Proverbs 4:23

Living in love and loving life,

By: Terry McPherson

xoxo,
Ms.A

When Imperfections Make it Perfect

I asked God for strength that I might achieve
I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey

I asked for health that I might do greater things
I was given infirmity that I might do better things

I asked for riches that I might be happy
I was given poverty that I might be wise

I asked for power that I might have the praise of men
I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life
I was given life that I might enjoy all things

I got nothing that I asked for, but everything I hoped for.
Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered.
I am, among all men, MOST RICHLY BLESSED

xoxo
Ms. A

I Am Who I Am

The Moment When...

You hate it when it suddenly came back, and reminds you all the things you don't want to remember.

It'll drag you to the state of confusion when you feel totally okay in one second, and the next second you feel like your world is trembling down

In one minute you feel like you are ready to love and be loved again, yet the next minute you feel that you're not ready at all.

In one moment you see yourself as a strong person yet the next moment you just need someone to hold you.

You feel like you have your life settled down one by one then you realized you were no where near any of them.

But one thing for sure, you have to learn to value yourself more than ever.
Each of you is one of a kind, and if anyone couldn't see how much you worth, then they are not worthy.

Keep looking forward for what's coming for you. Life is one hell of a ride, it turns you upside down. It's not how you get the hell out of it, it's about enjoying the ride.

xoxo,

Ms. A

Be Brave, Be Courageous, Be Bold!!!

"You always have a choice, and to not make a choice is also your choice"

Yes folks, I am going to talk about choices *again*, I am very familiar with "I have no choice" sentence as an answer everytime I asked people why they did something that I can't understand why. Not always have to be something bad, it's something that I can't think of their reason to do so.

Maybe the real reason is too complicated and private to be told. If so, then I'm sorry if I asked something that I wasn't suppose to ask, and if I do, tell me straight away, I'll back off instantly, and if I don't, remind me about what I write here :p

Anyway, back to the topic.
I always believe that we will always have a choice in our life. Always! Even when we did something that wasn't our choice, it's our choice to do that!

You can choose to do what you want, you can choose to do what you don't want, or you can choose to do nothing. It is totally up to you!

Some criminals (in the movies that I watch) sometimes always use 'I have no choice' as their reason behind their crime, in which I think is non sense, because they do know what they're doing, and they chose to do so. You get what I'm trying to say here right?

This life, your life, and my life happen based on our choices, our own decisions.

Sometimes, I think it is harder to live your life when you have more choices than when you have less choices.
You have to make a very good judgement and considerations upon your choice out of those many choices you chose not to take. Example: when you want to buy a house, our rent a place, when you choose your university, your job, new car, new phone. Those simple things that sometimes make life a bit more complicated than it should be. But overall, is that the beauty of life?

You chose something that wasn't quite right, you made mistakes, you learn from them.

Is that the main point of our freewill that God has granted to us?

What's the point of our life when we make no mistakes? Where's the fun?
Our life is like a book, we have our own story, and I just want mine to be worth the read, or maybe some more re-reads.
Lots of dramas, lots of tears, but don't forget the laughs and the smiles.

Make your choice! Be brave, be courageous, be bold.
We only have one life to live.
Make it counts!

xoxo

Ms. A

PS. I just realize how my title would be a very great line for blackberry bold advertisement. If any of RIM's marketing department staff read this and going to use this for any your BB bold advertisement, I will require an incentive. LOL

PPS. Considering on the very low number of my blog readers. I don't know what made me so confident about a RIM's marketing staff would ever get to my blog and use my line.

PPPS. Just in case they really do, I'd still require an incentive.

Busy Bee

When was the last time I really write something on my blog? Feels like ages ago!

I know I haven't finished my "Sweet dreams to nightmares" story. I will finish it, I just don't know when. It's not that I don't want to finish it, it's just because I hardly have anytime for it. You know for me to be able to finish that story on the finale post will take me at least 3 hours and I'm not sure if I have that much spare time. Unless any of you who read my blog feels like it is better to me NOT to continue the story, please let me know. Really, I'm serious. Let me know the reason too please, you can comment as an anon. If noone put any comment then I'll follow my own guts. Hehehe

So, what's been happening lately? My work is starting to get busier and busier, if only my work was like end of 2011 period where I had almost NO work to do (almost folks, still had some) I could sit down on my desk and start writing the plot and story in my agenda and that story would be finished by now. But this month! There could be 4 people coming to me in a same day asking me to assist them on their jobs, which I'm totally fine and happy about it (I love being busy! Really! I enjoy my busy time more than my nothing-to-do time) but it left me with no time to think about what to write on my blog! I even posted 3 posts which weren't my writing (*shame on me) and I'm writing this one from my iPhone quickly only to put my vent today because I miss writing so much!

You probably think that based on my working hour, I suppose to have time after work right? Plus the weekends. PLENTY of time. No no buddy, I should clarify my working conditions first. My current job will only hire me til April (about three months from now) my employment status is under a contract, so I need to focus on finding another permanent job after I finish my contract in case my current company wouldn't hire me for a permanent position. I don't mean to be so negative, but life has been teaching me to hope for the best and prepare for the worst. Therefore, I need to apply for more jobs during February and March and I haven't accomplished my job application target for this month. Why? Because I've been busy during my weekends! Hanging out, catching up with some old high school friends, family time, not to mention the preparation for Chinese New Year.

OH!!! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!! For those who celebrate it!
I finally get to feel the experience of receiving the 'red envelope' again after 2 years (because no 'red envelope' or celebration of CNY is Australia *sobs)
It's nice to get some extra pocket money, but also giving and receiving red envelope is a symbol of sharing your luck and prosperity. Since I'm not married yet, I am not allowed to give any. O well. Too bad. LOL

Yeah, my weekends are fully utilized for having fun and self indulgence (I'm contemplating to take a yoga class or dancing class btw, haven't made up my mind, but I really do think about it). I did apply for some jobs though, but I haven't heard back from any. If any of my readers are kind enough to find me a job :) I'm working in a bank, one of the leading bank in USA too! :) Let me know if you do have any opportunity for me. Hehehehe

Okay, back to topic. I don't even know what the topic was! OHH! And about the CNY preparation, did I mention that I repainted my living room wall and put wallpapers on them? It was such a mission! I'll try to find some time to write in here, in another seperate post of course. That was a kind of experience I'll never forget for my entire life! It was awesome. Ahahahaha

I think this post is long enough, knowing that this post was meant to be a 'full of rant' post, I didn't realize I wrote that much, I'm too lazy to Proofread this post. Apology if I made any unforgivable grammatical or spelling errors up there. English isn't my first language, so....

Anyway, hope all of you have a great great greay day! And weekend ahead!

xoxo!
Ms. A

Careful With Your Email

A Minnesota couple decided to vacation to Florida during the winter. They planned to stay at the very same hotel where they spent their honeymoon 20 years earlier. Because of hectic schedules, it was difficult to coordinate their travel schedules. So, the husband left Minnesota and flew to Florida on Thursday. His wife would fly down the following day.

The husband checked into the hotel. There was a computer in his room, so he decided to send an e-mail to his wife. However, he accidentally left out one letter in her e-mail address, and without realizing his error, he sent the e-mail.

Meanwhile.....somewhere in Houston, a widow had just returned home from her husband's funeral. He was a minister of many years who was called home to glory following a sudden heart attack. The widow decided to check her e-mail, expecting messages from relatives and friends. After reading the first message, she fainted.

The widow's son rushed into the room, found his mother on the floor, and saw the computer screen which read:

To: My Loving Wife
Subject: I've Arrived
Date: 16 May 2003
I know you're surprised to hear from me. They have computers here now and you are allowed to send e-mails to your loved ones. I've just arrived and have been checked in. I see that everything has been prepared for your arrival tomorrow. Looking forward to seeing you then! Hope your journey is not as uneventful as mine was.
P.S. Sure is hot down here!

LOL,

Ms. A

Miss Piggy's Bottle: Winter city

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Miss Piggy's Bottle: Winter city:

Letter from Grandma

*All the characters and names are fictions*

One day I received a letter from grandma... it says:

"The other day I went up to a local Christian bookstore and saw a "honk if you love Jesus " bumper sticker. I was feeling particularly sassy that day because I had just come from a thrilling choir performance, followed by a thunderous prayer meeting, so I bought the sticker and put it on my bumper.

Boy, I'm glad I did! What an uplifting experience followed! I was stopped at a red light at a busy intersection, just lost in thought about the Lord and how good He is and I didn't notice that the light had changed. It is a good thing someone else loves Jesus because if he hadn't honked, I'd never have noticed! I found that LOTS of people love Jesus! While I was sitting there, the guy behind started honking like crazy, and then he leaned out of his window and screamed, "For the love of GOD! GO! GO! Jesus Christ, GO! " What an exuberant cheerleader he was for Jesus! Everyone started honking! I just leaned out of my window and started waving and smiling at all these loving people. I even honked my horn a few times to share in the love! There must have been a man from Florida back there because I heard him yelling something about a "sunny beach ".

I saw another guy waving in a funny way with only his middle finger stuck up in the air. I asked my teenage grandson in the back seat what that meant, he said that it was probably a Hawaiian good luck sign or something. Well, I've never met anyone from Hawaii, so I leaned out the window and gave him the good luck sign back. My grandson burst out laughing. He was enjoying this religious experience, too! 

A couple of the people were so caught up in the joy of the moment that they got out of their cars and started walking towards me. I bet they wanted to pray or ask what church I attended, but this is when I noticed the light had changed. So, I waved to all my sisters and brothers grinning, and drove on through the intersection. I noticed I was the only car that got through the intersection before the light changed again and I felt kind of sad that I had to leave them after all the love we had shared, so I slowed the car down, leaned out of the window and gave them all the Hawaiian good luck sign one last time as I drove away. Praise the Lord for such wonderful folks!

Love,

Grandma"

xoxo,

Ms. A

Make Your Choice

"Beggars are not choosers"

I heard over this line while I was working today, not that I eavesdropped their conversation, but because she said that line loudly. Very very very loud. BUT! I'm happy I heard that line, because it is SO TRUE! That line got me thinking (yes, I've been thinking a lot lately, and I don't think it will stop anytime soon), beggars do not have a privilege to choose.

Why?

Because they have made up their choice! They chose whatever they are begging for! They have chose their choices for life! Job, place to live, partners, family, business, anything! They have set up what they want and chase it. Which wasn't a bad thing. The bad thing is when you have decided what you want and you don't want anything else, so when you didn't get what you wanted, you 'begged' for it. Keep begging the certain company to hire you for a certain position, keep begging for your ex to take you back, keep begging your landlord to let you stay, you begged so you'll get what you wanted.

The thing is, when you beg for something you wanted so bad, you missed out ALL the choices you might have! If you take a good look on beggars, they live they life with begging for other's generosity to give them money to survive. I mean, seriously! Do they ever think about what they've been missing when they spend their lives on begging? It's not like they don't have any choice. They could be a driver or a house servant or anything better than being a beggar!

NEVER! EVER! close your eyes on the options you might have in your life just because you want it less than something else. Life is full of surprise! You never know what life could bring to you. Like my silly "accident" in the emergency exit? Even it wasn't exactly an opportunity to do anything, but life is awesome! It is great! It is full of surprise!! So stop begging for something that wasn't yours and open up for more exciting choices in front of you. It might be a little bit hard to see those great opportunities now, but trust me, God never gives you something less than you deserve.

You couldn't get a job in your favorite company? Who knows you'll get a better position in another company with a better career path? Or earn more money?

You couldn't go to your favorite university? Who knows you'll get scholarship in another university?

You couldn't be with someone you love? Who know Prince Harry might fall for you? (okay, that's too much, I'd prefer Ryan Reynolds though :p )

But you get what I mean right?

By not getting what you want, doesn't mean that you'll be a lot less happier in the long run (you might be for a while, I know, I've been there), but you'll understand why you didn't get what you wanted later on, eventually.

Here's my point;

No one - I repeat - NO ONE becomes a 'beggar' by fate,

They become one by choice,

God created us NOT to be a follower, but to be a leader! and it is UP TO YOU to be what you wanna be, and to choose what you wanna do.

Never blame God for your conditions.

Never say that you have no choice because YOU DO!!

So GET UP! and make yourself a 'chooser', not a 'beggar'.

xoxo

Ms.A

Success & Happiness = Revenge (?)

Last night my bestie wrote one the quotes I'm very familiar with on my facebook's timeline (yes folks! Get a facebook timeline, facebook wall is so last year!), anyway, she said;

"The best revenge is to be successful, is to stay strong and move forward in life; never stop, never give up, never take a step back"

So I went through all the wise words tweets I saved during the second time I broke up with Mr.C, one the tweet says exactly have the same point with what my bestie wrote on my fb, it says;

"Best revenge? H a p p i n e s s, because nothing drives people more crazy than seeing someone is actually having a f**king good life"

Those quotes make me think. Really? Do we really need to be heartbroken to realized that we have to be successful, and happy? NO, WE DON'T!! Everyone deserves to be successful and happy in their lifes! We don't need The heartbreaking event to make us able to have that kind of good life!

We can plan our life, set up our goals, dreams, and hopes. Not giving up, keep moving forward and get what we want! We are so capable of it! But the thing is, sometimes we are too comfortable with our life and forgot that God has created us for a purpose, also we are too comfortable to step out of our comfort zone and pursue our purpose of living, therefore, we might need those hearbreaking event to wake us up in a hard way so we will start moving towards our goals.

Then here's the 'what if' questiones arise.

What if I already had all my life planned perfectly? What if I had arranged the chronology of my goals and when will I achieve them, I had all my dreams, and my purpose in their place? and what if suddenly! Without me asking for it, I met a guy unexpectedly, I fell for him, I loved him so much but I have to sacrifice my plans? What should I do?

Here's what I learned (in a very hard way) from my relationship with Mr.C. I never asked for a boyfriend during my study period in Autralia, and we even met randomly while we both queued for the lobster promo in the Casino.

When I got in to a relationship with Mr.C I made so many changes and adjustments for my future and all of them- I repeat ALL OF MY FUTURE PLANS had Mr.C in it. I never thought or imagined my life without Mr.C, and that's why I was devastated when we broke up. (I know I haven't finished the whole story yet but trust me, it didn't go anywhere near 'good ending')

I gave everything that I have, I compromised with myself for Mr.C, hence when he left, I had nothing. I had nothing to look forward to, I had nothing to pursue, I had nothing to accomplish. No wonder I was so freaking depressed! Oh! Just to make it clear, Mr.C hardly asked me to give up any of my dreams or goals, I did. So it's none of his fault, the only thing he broke is the 'forever' promise. That's all.

The conclusion I could draw from my past experience is never-ever give your everything to someone, even if you love the person with all your heart! NEVER!

Yes, you should make some adjustments and changes to have your path and your partner path synchronized, but NEVER give up your own goals and dreams even if you could see both of you stay together forever. No one knows what could happen.

So in case when the undesirable end comes, both of you couldn't stay together anymore with any kind of reasons, you won't left with nothing. Yes, it will still hurt you and tear you to pieces, but! It'll hurt less than when you have given all you have and left with nothing. When you keep some of your own goals and dreams without your partner in them. You still have something to look forward to even when you guys aren't together anymore.

The 'revenge' idea to move on might seems good at the beginning and it'll motivate you enough to really do move forward, but when you still focus on the 'revenge' a.k.a your enemy, ex, frenemy, rival. You won't go as far as you could when you make yourself as the focus. If you still want the revenge, then you haven't moved on at all.

Never give up on hope!

You deserve to be happy! To be successful! To be brilliant! And to be anything you want to be!

If you have read this post, make sure you won't make the same mistake that I did, trust me, learning it in a hard way wasn't great at all.

Set you goals, dream your dreams, plan you way, and get it done!

Do not compromise, do not hesitate.

God has made us all beautiful in our own ways and He has planned a fabulous 'happy ending' for each of us!

"Keep you sight focused on God, be patient and watch the exciting things that God will do in your life."

xoxo

Ms. A

Negative to Positive

I AM NOT PREGNANT! if that is what you think of when you read the title! Just to make it clear, it'll be just another story guys. Sorry if I just ruined your expectation. :p

It was New Year's Eve, I went to meet up with my friend from Brisbane and drove my sister to her friend's place where she would spend her last day in 2011. So I prepare myself, tidied up a bit, put on some make up, standard routine when a girl wanna go out. I was excited about New Year's Eve, couldn't wait til midnight and watch the whole fireworks in my neighborhood.

Here's the weird thing, there was a moment when I looked into myself inside the mirror and I hated it, I hated how I look like (which was how I normally look like, with some make up on), my make up suddenly felt so heavy (which was unusual, cos I put normal amount of make up like usual, even lighter than my office-look). I didn't understand and still trying to figure out what happened in my head on that day.

What's going on? Do I put on some make up simply to make myself look better and tidier and more professional? Why do girls put on some make up? So the world couldn't see their imperfections? Or simply to cover up all the wounds that are invisible? Do they put on make up because they feel insecure? because they don't want people to see how fragile they are? because they don't want people to see their flaws?

The truth is, I don't know....

I used to love staring at myself in the mirror, even without make up, not to be proud and arrogant, but I love the way I am and the way I look (yes, I am a bit of a narcissist)! I love watching myself smiling and laughing for no reason cos I like it! I like my smile, and how I look like when I'm happy. So what happened to that girl in the mirror? I just hopefully wished that she hasn't forgotten how to smile and laugh from her heart.

RIGHT! So the count down to 2012 was happening, fireworks were everywhere!! It felt like a war to be honest! the explosions, the sound, It was like the enemies were bombing us! Anyway, I went out with my mum, we had a walk around our complex and the neighbors fired out LOTS of fireworks. That was the time I should feel excited! I should, right?! I'm a HUGE fan of fireworks!! But I didn't! I have no idea what got into me that night, I was in another dimension, my thought wasn't there, people kept wow-ing and clapping during the fireworks 'show' but I just walked quietly and I was silent! For those who know me well, that night was a kind of time where I would be jumping all around and hugging people around me and shouting HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone. But there I was, being highly anti-social, did some handshakes and smile and small happy new year greeting. WHAT'S GOING ON WITH ME??!!!!

So, I decided to call my friends in Brisbane, to say happy new year again, and also because I know they love me for who I am and I know I can count on them whenever I'm feeling down. and that was just what I needed! a bunch of awesome crazy people who know me well enough and know exactly how to lighten up my gloomy feelings! (If you guys are reading this, I'd use this opportunity to thank all of you! I love you guys!!)

What exactly happened then? I still don't know and I'm yet to find out, but the truth is, I don't care.

It was new year, it was a perfect time to put all the negatives behind and embrace all the positives!

I'm aware that those emotional roller coaster will come to me again anytime in the future, but let's not be so negative.

"Start your day with a smile and may happiness follows you for the rest of your day"

xoxo

Ms. A

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Another fresh new year is here
Another year to live
To banish worry, doubt, and fear
To love and laugh and give!
This bright new year is given to me.
To live each day with zest
To daily grow and try to be.
My highest and my best!
I have the opportunity.
Once more to right some wrongs
To pray for peace,
to plant a tree,
And sing more joyful songs!."


- William Arthur Ward


HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS!!!


xoxo,


Ms. A